My Journey: The Rise Beyond Chronic Pain
I don’t know you, but when I was a kid, I believed pain and illness were things that happened to elderly people or to people who didn’t take care of their health.
So when my GP told me over a cold phone call, “Annarita, you have trigeminal neuralgia. There’s no cure. You’ll have it for the rest of your life. It may go away, but it usually comes back worse,” I froze. It was 2020, in the full pandemic, and I was about to turn 38 years old…and actually, I was in the best shape of my life.
I listened, holding my breath.
My mind, trained after years of personal development, was furiously searching for something to hold onto. A spark of light. An anchor for my dreams.
I thought, “This will be hard, but at least I won’t die”
Then he added fatly, like reading from a textbook:
“It’s called the suicide disease. The pain can be so intense that people take their own lives.”
My heart stopped. “Take my life?”
What about my dreams? My legacy? Is this really it?
I wasn’t ready. I was a good girl. Why me?
And while my brain was still spiralling, something else rose from deep inside. A voice I’d never heard before screamed
“This is not me. I accept the diagnosis, but not the prognosis.”
You might think that was my breakthrough moment. It wasn’t.
It was just the beginning.
Even with a strong mindset, when days become weeks and weeks become months and months become years, chronic pain consumes you.
I approached it like an engineer, determined to fix it. I tracked every possible trigger, real or imagined.
I stopped eating solid food. Stopped smiling. Stopped talking. Stopped moving my shoulder. Stopped living.
Each day after work, because yes, you still have to pay the bills, I’d sit on the sofa for hours, staring at the wall, trying not to move a single muscle. Frozen by fear.
Yes, I was in pain. But the prison?
I built that myself.
Let’s step back for a moment.
Before all this, back in 2013, I doubled down on something that had always been part of my life: daily fitness and nutrition.
At first, it was about staying healthy and taking care of my body, but soon it became something deeper.
I began to notice that energy, strength, and focus weren’t just physical. They opened a doorway to something more: a level of vitality and presence I had never accessed before.
Then, in 2015, pushed by my (now) husband, I walked into Unleash the Power Within with Tony Robbins. I didn’t know it at the time, but that weekend would shift everything. It was my entry into the world of personal growth and it felt like coming home.
The Day Pain Asked Me to Become Someone New
I had already done a few seminars with Tony Robbins. I knew some tools.
I had studied mindset, emotional mastery, and peak performance.
And I had my background in engineering, structured thinking, problem-solving.
Still, I wasn’t prepared for what came next.
Chronic pain entered my life in waves, first in 2017, then more intensely in 2020 when I was diagnosed with trigeminal neuralgia, one of the most painful conditions in existence. For over two years, I struggled to eat, speak, smile, or function. The pain consumed everything.
It didn’t matter how many mindset tools I had.
This was a challenge I didn’t know how to approach.
And so, I went deeper.
I trained even more, this time not just to have a better life, but to have a life.
I started training extensively in coaching, mindset, and emotional mastery, learning from incredible mentors including Tony Robbins, Dr. Joe Dispenza, Dr John Demartini, Gabor Maté and others.
At the same time, I was thriving in my career at British Telecom, solving complex problems and designing network solutions for international Customers.
One day, I thought, “what if I put together these two areas of my life?” The structured world of engineering and the soulful world of personal development? And the magic started happening.
For the first time, I was not just studying transformation. I was living it.
I learned how to manage my state.
I rewrote my story.
I decided on my strategy.
I rewired my beliefs.
I defined my values.
I created a new empowering identity.
And I did this with a structure and a process.
This Is Who I Am Now
Today, I call myself the Authenticity Engineer, a blend of my technical background and my human journey.
I no longer try to fix everything. Instead, I walk beside people like you, those living with chronic pain, navigating challenges day after day.
I bring everything I’ve lived, studied, and built. My work blends science and soul, grounded in neuroscience, emotional regulation, mindset coaching, and a deep understanding of what challenging the path through chronic pain is.
My focus is not the pain. It’s the destination: rising beyond it.
If you’re here, maybe something in your body or your heart is asking for that raising beyond too.
If so, you’re not alone anymore.
You’re exactly where you need to be.
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